Where did YOU think you’d be by now?

Someone put on the brakes, the year is almost over and I’m not entirely sure I’m ready for December. December was always the month that made the years prior flash in front of me like a bad record on repeat.

[Queue anxiety]

So much happened and certain things didn’t happen like I thought they would…

1. Engaged then separated.
2. Consummating my first home with my partner…then sitting across from him and his lawyer signing the papers of sale.
3. Gaining weight, then losing most of it after my surgery.
4. Pulling up my boobs in the mirror…I recall they used to be higher up.
5. Acne bulleting a good majority of my face…then getting to the root and clearing it up.
6. Not being able “to go” for two days and now having internal digestive pipes that finally work.
7. Pulling my boobs up again…yep, pretty sure they used to be higher up.
8. Debilitating depression and then meeting the right therapist that gave me years of therapy in one month
9. Shit, what’s that…crows feet?
10. Countless workouts that I was doing all wrong and killing myself over
11. Hating my body every day to now loving my body for most of them.
12. Heart broken. Stomped on. Lost 10lbs. The heartbreak diet.
13. Heart flying. Heart bubbles exploding. Gained 10lbs. Love contains calories.
14. I should have meditated more.
15. I said I’d volunteer but didn’t get around to it.
16. Certain things jiggle that didn’t before.
17. Almost dying and being given a second chance.

November and December don’t just flash a year in review (I wish), they flash multiple ones for me and I know from speaking with my patients, I’m not alone.  The lucky thing is we’re always given a new chance but how do we stay with it? What motivates us to continue beyond February when we generally run out of steam and forget the plans we had? I’ve been thinking about this and finally came up with an answer.

That answer is coming up in the next week and soon we’ll forget about resolutions and join a revolution that will make everything change. Sign up to my Red Couch Confessions newsletter and don’t miss a thing.

So in the meantime, I want to hear from you…

Where did YOU think you’d be by now?